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club 8: whatever you want 

i know i said i would write more reviews today, but i’ve decided i’ll postpone more fantastic fest stuff until tomorrow.

instead, i want to talk about decision-making.

one of the reasons being a grown-up sucks is that you’re constantly faced with a variety of options, and you have to make a choice as an independent, well-informed adult. yr mom and yr dad aren’t there to tell you which laptop to buy or which person to go out with or where to move. and yeah, there’s definitely a positive side to that freedom, but still. it’s scary! it’s hard! sometimes, even at the age of 28, i want to come home and find my clothes laid out for me by my mom and my evening planned by my dad (on an excel spreadsheet, of course).

i’m not trying to be a baby here, i’m just saying that decisions can be a major pain in the boo-tay.

when faced with a choice, i usually spend *at least* several days fixating on it. and when it comes to Big Life Decisions, we’re talking, oh, years of overanalytical neurosis. even after i FINALLY reach a conclusion and act on it, i spend the next few days/weeks/years wondering if i made the right choice. but what if i done this instead? or what if i had taken this path? ROBERT FROST, CAN YOU HEAR ME? what happened at the end of yr road not taken? TELL ME.

the reason i’m going off on this tangent is because today, i made a decision. and it was a good decision. and i knew, within a minute of making it, that it was no doubt, hands down, one hundred percent the RIGHT decision.

and that NEVER HAPPENS!

so i’m going to tell you about it.

i went to a work meeting this afternoon about changes to the TOEFL test, which, as you may know, is a test for evaluating english proficiency. since i do admissions, i see scores from this test all of the time, so i figured it would be a good idea to go to the meeting.

this was the first good decision i made. but it wasn’t the absolute best, cos the meeting was boring and i kept doing that half-falling forward asleep thing and i left (early!) after an HOUR. zzzzz.

in spite of the craptastic nature of the meeting, i was v. pleased with myself for choosing to attend, cos guess what? there were cookies!!!!!! a big ole silver platter of baked delights!!!!

i eagerly approached the refreshments and noticed, with awe, that there were several choices.

folks, this is when things got ugly.

on this platter, there were:

oatmeal raisin cookies

chocolate chip cookies

white chocolate & macadamia nut cookies

lemon bars

brownies

i know, it was insane. like, HOW IS A NORMAL PERSON SUPPOSED TO CHOOSE BETWEEN SO MANY AVENUES OF DELICIOUSNESS?

this is when i had to make what was probably one of the biggest decisions of my life: which baked good should i select?!!!!

since there was a line behind me, i had to be quick (that kind of pressure can kill you). furiously, i performed a mental diagnostic of each item.

oatmeal raisin: no need to waste time on this! raisins are gross! NEXT!

chocolate chip cookie: chocolate would be GREAT right now. and if it’s soft and chewy? perfection. but what if it’s crispy? or worse, burned?!

white chocolate and macadamia nut cookie: that is a killer combo, no question. but am i in the mood for white or milk chocolate? my heart is saying MILK!

lemon bars: wow, these are pretty rare outside of church functions and bake sales. i really shouldn’t pass up this opportunity, but at the same time, am i feeling the lemon?

brownies: hellooooo chocolate! they look pretty fudgey, but maybe they might be overkill to my senses?

after evaluating all of my options, there still wasn’t a clear-cut winner. i would have to make a leap of faith. i would have to rely on my gut instinct and believe in myself!  inner voice of my tummy, i trust you!

and so…  i picked the chocolate chip.

it was a bold move, considering the fact that i had no chance to test its level of chewiness before selecting it. i then walked back to my seat, wondering if maybe i should’ve gotten the lemon bar. DANG IT!

finally, the moment of truth. i took a bite of the cookie… AND IT WAS AMAZING!!! it was soft and chewy and chocolately and ABSOLUTELY SATISFYING!

i knew, from my taste buds all the way to my tippy toes, that i had made the best decision. i felt so happy with myself that i wanted to send a text to the world: “OMG! WORLD! I PICKED THE RIGHT COOKIE!!!!!!”

ya’ll, there is no better feeling than basking in the sublime glow of a good decision.

so next time, when you’re faced with a dizzying array of choices, when you don’t know what to do, when you can’t fathom ever making up yr mind, remember to go with yr gut. trust yrself, because yr heart (or tummy) doesn’t lie.

i took the cookie less traveled by, and that has made all the difference.

LINKS

i finally watched the first episode of gossip girl. yet another good decision.

apparently, exercise doesn’t make you skinny, it just makes you hungry. THANKS FOR NOTHING, SCIENCE!

this week’s modern love column, about an ex-boyfriend into body suspension, was surprisingly poignant for a story featuring the words “blood,” “hooks” and “stretched skin.”