Archive for March, 2004

Monday March 29, 2004 at 05:00 pm

heard this poem on the writer’s almanac while driving to work this morning…

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Poem: “Invocation,” by Maurya Simon, from Ghost Orchid (Red Hen Press).

Invocation

O God–who art dust mote and fern spore,
salt crystal and dog-star, who art refinery smoke,
cumulus, leaf-rot, dishwater and spindrift–

how can I know thy invisible movements
through this world, when thou inhabit even
the debris of lives, the perforations of years?

God, who wears the green mask of death,
who visits the world in wisps of prayer,
how can I divine thy face through my tears?

Give me some sign–a thumbprint, a fragrance
of hyacinth, stigmata of coal on my brow–
that I may steep my silence in faith;

show me thy secret handshake welcoming
the weeds, thy luminous smile, thy mind
that spins the world wildly on its axis–

consecrate me as thou would the tiger’s yawn,
offering itself like the poor man’s bowl,
to the terrified fawn, to the wayward dove–

and I will do thy bidding, polishing words
so they gleam like ice, abandoning my rage
to kneel before thee, swallowing my doubt.

But there is no answer when I call out,
and my longing darkens my throat, my mouth.
How can I lift my eyes to a gutted sky?

O God, who art neither father nor son, nor
holy ghost, who art haloed by radium clouds,
beloved by millions of sparkplugs and ants,

thou who nestles in war’s lap, in the breasts
of desire, who conspires with the darkest joys,
who art as amorphous as a map of stillness–

I cry out to thee again and again, over
and over, and only the wilderness answers,
and the dangerous world’s laughter–

Thursday March 11, 2004 at 05:00 pm

Pettiness and Politics
Aleksandr Solzhenitsyn

I must say that among educated people, politics occupies far too great a proportion of time. All the periodicals, all the newspapers are saturated with politics, although many of the objects they are discussing are very transient and short-term. Of course, many people do occupy themselves with higher themes…But in general, modern humankind is characterized by the loss of the ability to answer the principal problems of life and death. People are prepared to stuff their heads with anything, and to talk of any subject, but only to block off the contemplation of this subject. This is the reason for the increasing pettiness of our society, the concentration on the small and irrelevant.

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i completely and whole-heartedly agree with this statement… and speaking of things that seem huge but are probably, in the long run, irrelevant [ok, not irrelevant, but not life & death]:

thomas (my car) almost�exploded last night due to some sort of issue with jumper cables. thankfully, i was not there to witness the toxic smoke billowing from the engine and the flames bursting from the melting cables… poor seth sacrificed his own right hand to tear the burning cables off of the car batteries… thomas now owes him a life debt.

seth has a terrible, ugly burn on his hand, and thomas has melted plastic dripping out from under the hood and onto his right headlight, like blood oozing from his brain…

at this point, each day brings some sort of insanity that could be blamed on spring fever, the full moon, spiritual omens… regardless, i’m completely at a loss.� but i think i can still laugh about almost all of it.

Tuesday March 9, 2004 at 05:00 pm

an important reminder for me during Lent, and maybe for you…

True Drops of Love
Mother Teresa

We must not think that our love has to be extraordinary. But we do need to love without getting tired. How does a lamp burn? Through the continuous input of small drops of oil. These drops are the small things of daily life: faithfulness, small words of kindness, a thought for others, our way of being quiet, of looking, of speaking, and of acting. They are the true drops of love that keep our lives and relationships burning like a lively flame.

Monday March 8, 2004 at 05:00 pm

well, spring (summer) has (as usual) taken houston by storm, and all of the usual spring fever symptoms are surfacing in almost every way possible…

i always approach spring with nervous anticipation, because it tends to be full of surprises… sudden twists in the road that throw you off balance… sometimes you scrape your knees, and sometimes you land in a bed of tiny purple flowers that you would have never noticed.

sharp turns ahead!