Archive for August, 2003

Tuesday August 24, 2004 at 05:00 pm

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thanks for all of the “get well’ wishes. aw shucks you guys really do care! anyway, i’m back in austin and feeling better, although i can’t quite kick this thing. i’m still really congested, so when i talk on the phone, i sound totally weird (according to several telephone witnesses). thank goodness the gnomes seem to have retreated…

anyhoo, i’m re-reading parts of “reaching out”, which i�have mentioned several times on this xanga already because it is an incredible piece of work. this morning i read a section quoting a letter by rainer maria rilke… and it struck me so deeply, the kind of impact you feel when a dear old friend�gives you adviced based on years of knowing you, years of connecting with you. these words still resonate within me (and i hope they continue to do so)… they encourage me in this time of uncertainty. so, of course, i must share:

“I want to beg you as much as I can… to be patient toward all that is unsolved in your heart and to try to love the questions themselves… Do not now seek answers which cannot be given you because you would not be able to live them.� And the point is to live everything.� *Live* the questions now.� Perhaps you will then gradually, without noticing it, live along some distant day into the answer… take whatever comes with great trust, and if only it comes out of your own will, out of some need of your innermost being, take it upon yourself and hate nothing.”

i’m sure going to try…

Saturday August 23, 2003 at 05:00 pm

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ok, so last nite, after a free showing of “a mighty wind” (wha happened?!) and yummy cake at empire… my friend jessica got mugged. my sweet, red-headed, gentle friend had her purse ripped off of her arm by some guy 3 times her size in the middle of a dark neighborhood street.

i’m SO thankful that i was still in the parking lot so she didn’t have to be alone. and, in a weird way, i’m thankful that i was mugged last summer, cos i knew *exactly* how she felt. i could empathize with the jolting sensation of mental and physical violation. listening to jessica and remembering my own feelings made me want to throw up, and then jump in my car and run the motherfucker down.

fortunately, jessica was not physically harmed, and she didn’t really lose anything *incredibly* valuable. she had her cell and keys in the other hand, which was SO fortunate. so we plus her friends erica and colby went to brasil (empire was closed) to help jessica unwind a little while her parents drove down to pick her up.

afterwards, i got home and told hilary what happened. such a dramatic event, combined with a bit of sleepiness, yielded an EXCELLENT NEW idea for TELEVISION PROGRAMMING.

inspired by the theme of the LOVE BOAT, we decided that the next great step for reality TV will be:

THE BASTARD BOAT

this is how it will work: we’ll ask the american public to send in profiles of all of the major assholes that they have (unfortunately) had contact with. we’ll pick the top 20 or so, and tell them they’ve won a spot on a new reality TV show (we’ll make up some false preface, much like the creators of joe millionaire). the group of assholes will then have to spend�3 months aboard the U.S.S. Bastard (well, we’ll tell them it has a different name to maintain our little secret), interacting and basically giving each other a taste of their own medicine. meanwhile, the american people will become glued to their sets, watching all of the mean people become more and more angry and turbulent, trapped on a gleaming white ship in the middle of the pacific ocean. special bonus: the show will feature cameos of famous assholes every week, like fred durst or mark mcgrath from sugar ray. yeah!

it’s like a modern version of the collesium (sp?), without the lions and stuff. we’ll all watch gleefully as the bastards tear each other to pieces.

who would YOU nominate for the show? all i gotta say is: jessica’s mugger will the the 1st passenger on the BASTARD BOAT.�

congratulations, you asshole.

Friday August 22, 2003 at 05:00 pm

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wow, lots of discussion going on down there! cool.

anyone want to go to value village and buy cheap china and smash it to pieces? sometimes it’s fun to *make* cheap things fall apart instead of watching cracks appear in the important things.

… ok fuck all of this deep stuff. i’m just glad it’s friday. let us all rest and play. a-men.

Thursday August 21, 2003 at 05:00 pm

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the truth is that things aren’t falling apart. change doesn’t necessarily mean fragmentation. although sometimes the best changes will totally break someone so that they may be made new and whole from the shards of their former self. like a really fabulous stained glass window.

i told olivia good-bye last nite. as always, i’m so excited about my friends and the grand adventures they pursue… but it’s hard to watch them leave. and still be here. even though i know i’m here for a reason (even if that reason eludes me sometimes).

some possible reasons include thursday nites at the g-man and my kick-ass small group from ecclesia. and my other dear friends that still roam around h-town.

and there are few things that make me happier than reading/hearing about my friends being happy… clarification, happy AND in a good, healthy place.

also on the happy list are massively VIOLENT summer thunderstorms. and there’s one going on right now.

meanwhile, i would like some ambition. or something.

Monday August 18, 2003 at 05:00 pm

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delights have been poking up�their sweetly tufted heads today, like the baby birds i saw this weekend in “winged migration”. except, unlike those damned penguins, i’m not letting my baby blessing get eaten by some ugly ass mean bird. ugh.

i wrote in my journal this morning, something i haven’t done in 6 months (!). no offense to xanga, but i really need to get back into private, reflective, no need to sound cool writing. it felt so good. hilarious, though, too, cos i was trying to cover 6 months. even a brief summary was beyond me. but that was ok, cos no one else will read it. relief.

another blessing- i’ve felt so out of it all morning, and then just 5 minutes ago realized i hadn’t opened my coffee thermos! oh sweet caffeine, set me right again. where *is* my brain that i would forget coffee?

i wish h-town had a blackout like new york. then i could feel metaphorically reassured and somewhat validated. and connected.

Thursday August 14, 2003 at 05:00 pm

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oh precious xanga, you’re back! i thought you might be broken forever.

i admit i was even having disloyal thoughts about joining livejournal. i am ashamed.

xanga, are you still fragile? does it hurt to move? can i sign yr cast?

Thursday August 7, 2003 at 05:00 pm

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wow, i feel so loved by the comments on my previous post. i miss you, my xanga comrades!!

i’m being serious here. the intense yet strangely ridiculous environment of my office increases my need for friendly contact and at the same time, devours all of my xanga and email time. what is a hi-tek girl to do?!

hopefully, i’ll be seeing more of you in person as you return to h-town. others of you, however, are going far, far away… increasing the necessity of electronic communication. i must say, however, that xanga is an extremely poor substitute. ahem.

fyi: i’ll start traveling again in september, making the rounds to austin, california, the twin cities, detroit, ohio, indianapolis, kentucky, tennessee… but no wisconsin this year (total bummer) and no chance in hell they’ll send me to the east coast (mega sigh).

i feel like inserting a little cross-stitched mantra here, such as: I LURVE MY FRIENDS or XANGA KEEPS ME SANE or WHO WANTS TO GO TO CHACHO’S FOR A MARGARITA? yeah, that would look stellar in rainbow cross-stitch. with a little frosty green margarita sewed next to it.

end of the xanga season (for now)

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i’ve been asked by josh “dorkus” katz to post something new. i’ve been meaning to post about the rest of my vacation (i.e. the fabulous road trip of posh deluxe and katrina july) but work has been pretty freaking insane.

basically, my xanga season is drawing to a close. that doesn’t mean that i will stop posting… it just means that i won’t be able to post as much as i have been, because work is no longer slow.

sigh.

but i’ll still be here, even if i’m just lurking and listening.

 

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